Red Neck and Farmers Tan
One has to be careful when one gets cocky and feels they don’t sunburn.
Guess who did that lil doozy? Me–and its sun poisoning now. If that doesn’t teach me nothing will. It has been hard to sleep, and I have come to LOVE my sleep since working on getting 8-10 hours a night. It makes a hella’ big difference in how one feels daily. So needless to say, I wont be farming for a few days.
Food has been under calorie and thats ok for right now, my stomach doesn’t want anything but light icy things in it. Robert moves out in a week and all has been going smoothly with little arguing, which is a relief. I had a lot of severe anxiety about many things; financially, the lack of a vehicle since mine died a year ago and we were using just his jeep to save money, how will Lizzie deal with it, etc. It’s really rocked my faith to a point where I finally said “God you know Im an idiot and wont ‘get it’ unless you show me like a two year old that you really are here and really do care about how we’re doing.” I got a phone call from one of Samantha’s friends. She is moving to NYC and can not afford to keep a car there…she asked me if I would take her 2004 Saturn. I tried to work out a payment deal but she refused it. So I offered to take in Phoebe , her cat, that she is not allowed to have in her new apartment.She accepted. For one month or one and a half months, I will struggle and then we will have a car. I think that was Gods overwhelmingly clear cut obvious answer to me.
I start what i call “adult day camp” this Monday, three days a week. It’s to give me the high therapeutic results of a hospital without actually being admitted. This way my whole world doesn’t stop but my emotional and chemical issues get dealt with in the manner they need. They will pick me up and drop me off every day that I go to the group. I wont have a lil lunch box though, they give us a meal while there. Though I wont go Wednesday as I go to Philly to see the U of Penn’s nephrology dept. I’m psyched.
So onward and upward is the theme for now.
I’m sending you much needed buddy slim ((((hugs)))) !!!! Keep your chin up!
Does Samantha have a sister who is in the same boat? I’ll take care of a cat for a car!
Glad to hear about the terapy and the fact that they will pick you up, thats a relief. I mean even if you have a car, driving to PA has to cost a lot in gas. But glad to hear you sound good…(besides the sunburn that is) Take care of yourself..and you never did e-mail me back…still don’t know what your doing on a farm! 